Now I become more and more confused about what is life for gay? Why it is so hard to be a gay? I am satisfied what I got right now-----a surpporting family,lots of friend,a chance to study aboard...also happy everyday,but this happiness is a little bit strange.I will suddendy fill in depress and fear when I am alone(so strange,I cannot find a satisfied answer so far,Ha Ha) As other boys,I do what boys do,no one know who I am,I mean I am a GAY,wow Fck! only I know this secret,I didn't give anybody chance to know this,I considered myself as a good actor,but cannot always be a actor,right? I didn't got any gay friends before(maybe some of my friends like me----good actors)Just what I've got so far,some gays just know SEX,what a pity!I mean eventhough I'm a gay but also a normal people,it makes me so scary to find a boyfriend.I mean I am totally a daydreamer,I just dream what I will do with my Mr Right in the future,but it has a long distense between dream and reality. A long-term relationship seems to hard for me,it's my dream and also on the way.I mean I don't regret be a gay,I love my family and friends,also they do the same way to me.I study hard,have lots of interests,enjoy life like another men in the world.Maybe because I am stupid and greedy,I really need more,but~~~~~ Anyway,I will still focus on my study,go on find what life that I want. I am lucky because I find this website,Ha Ha very good atmosphere! I will very glad to be here and be a member with you guys talk about movies,Take care!